So it is. My Lenten task is to "be nice."
Truth be told, when the Lord laid that on my heart last night, it was in relation to Darling.
I need to find a way to be nice.
It is not easy.
Darling works very hard these days. Oftentimes the kids do not see him for several days at time because he leaves for work so early and returns so late. He is mentally preoccupied and I have had to repeat the same information several times - only to discover several days later that he has no recollection of our multiple conversations on said topic.
I have started taking it personally.
It makes me feel insignificant.
It makes me feel as if I do not matter to him.
That is not a good place to be.
I have been reading "Power of a Praying Wife" again and that first chapter always slaps me in the face. The deal is, though, that my frustration with Darling has begun to feed a bitterness in me.
That is bad. "Bitter" is bad. I do not want to be bitter.
The goal for the Lenten season is "be nice." Surely over the next few weeks, the Lord will illuminate "be nice" in multiple ways.
I should be excited about the journey. I am not.
I should be thankful that the Lord sees a willing heart in me. I am not.
Sometimes I do not want to be the eager student, eager to learn, eager to research, eager to see Him in everything. Sometimes I want to just feed the bitterness and act ugly.
Evidently, that is exactly His point... well, I am guessing on that one.
I will let you know if I am spectacularly wrong or humbly correct.